I'm really bad at this. =/

It's been a very long time but I promise nothing was missed. With a slight delay and having to wait another complete cycle I didn't get my calendar until the end of March. Now though, I can say with full confidence, we are off and running. I had my first real appointment on April 5th. They did a test run of the implant to make sure that they would be able to get the catheter in to the exact spot that needed to be reached to deposit the embryos. After a few stumbles, as I'm not exactly typical, we know exactly how to approach it, the spot was reached and we have success. Following that was an ultrasound which is always fun....not.

The best part was meeting with the embryologist. We really got to go over the entire process and see pictures of what things will look like over the different stages. We even found out we'll get to see our embryos under the microscope prior to implant, and get pictures, which I find very cool.

Minor changes had to be made to the medicine cycle due my ovaries being small. Are we surprised? I think not. Like I said, I'm not typical. The good thing is it does not affect my retrieval date of April 28th. Just a different combination of the Lupron, and I will start that now on April17th.

Next appointment is on April 15th to have blood drawn, another quick exam and to go over the new medicine dosage. I'll be giving myself shots twice a day in the tummy for the Lupron, and I'm not sure where the FSH shots will be, but I think they are muscular. Looking at the positive side, that is one less week of poking myself everyday.

I'm nervous, and scared and praying like I never have before that we will be successful on the first round and that we'll be blessed with a healthy baby, boy or girl I don't care. Okay, we'd both love to have a daughter, but healthy and full term is the most important. I'm working on keeping my stress level down but that's easier said than done. I want to be bouncing off the walls excited but find myself tired most of the time and my sleep schedule is off. I'm waking up a few times a night. Maybe my body is just getting me prepared (a little early) for sleepless nights.

I have a girl's name I love, a boy's name will be a challenge as Greg would love Magnus Thor. Yeah, I'm not feeling that one. The girl's name though, I don't remember where I saw it but it was written somewhere and just bounced off the page and smacked me in the head. Liana Grace. It means "God has answered". It's important that the name has meaning. I always loved the name Lia/Leah (either spelling), and Ana has family ties on both sides, plus it's meaning....I mean it's just screaming out at me.

For now, I count down days and resist buying the cutest outfits I see. I so want to shop, lol. It's my way way of remaining positive. I know I have to be prepared for the chance it might not work the first time, but I just have this feeling in me, and I pray it's right. Little things have happened over the last 6 months that just seemed to be preparing us for this moment. It all has to mean something, right?